At least he’ll know the route of his problems in therapy
Yesterday was not the greatest for me. I’m not sure how I made it through the day. I have been having terrible sleeps lately, and I woke up feeling very tired. The fatigue kept growing throughout the morning and by noon, it hit me like a mac truck.
I had zero energy and after Austin left for school, I was like: How am I going to entertain this 10 month old? Between changing diapers and feedings, I play around on the floor with Reign, but today, I couldn’t. I kept feeling guilt as the day went on.
So in an attempt at not being a complete train wreck of a mother, I decided that instead of actually sitting upright on the floor playing, I would lay my body across the living room and let Reign crawl all over me, since he likes to do that. Plus with his hands and knees digging into my back, it’s kinda like getting a massage. It was fun for him, I got to lay around, not neglecting my baby, so we all win, right? Until Reign grabs 4 strands of my hair right at the crown of my hair where it parts, and pulls them out.
He continued to do the hair-pulling until I couldn’t relax on the floor anymore, because I was getting abused by my baby, so I moved to the couch. He followed me, pulled himself up to a standing position and starred at me as if to say “Woman, get off your lazy ass and play with me!”
I just couldn’t.
Then he grabbed the blanket I had on me and pulled it up over his face, and than back down. He was trying to entice me with a game of Peek a Boo.
Please stop being adorable, Reign. Don’t you realize that Mommy is TIRED?
I guess I’m a terrible mother. When he’s 20 years old, and in therapy, he’ll remember that time when he was 10 months old, and his own mother neglected him, because she was too tired.
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May 15th, 2010 at 12:50 am
Lisa,
From all the previous posts you can tell your a wonderful mother. All mother’s get those days it’s normal. At one point 15 years ago I had 5 children under five and there were days I thought I just couldn’t do it anymore but somehow you just do. Eventually they grew up into teenagers who at times became people I didn’t even know. I like to think they were abducted by the aliens and slowly the aliens have returned my children back as mature young adults. There are a few left to come back home and hopefully I can hang in there till they do;) You too just need to hang in there too your a wonderful mother and we all have those days even those weeks. When your boys are adults they will remember all the wonderful things you did for them and thank you for it